March 24, 2013

Three months down, twenty-one to go.  Hmm, that makes it sound like I’m really looking forward to the end.  And yet, while at times that’s very true, I have to admit that I have thoroughly enjoyed this adventure.  When I say enjoy though I don’t mean that it’s been three months of blissful, spiritual ecstasy.  That would certainly be an overstatement.  Don’t get me wrong, I have had countless moments of intense, heart wrenching encounters with God since I began, but lest we forget: with growth comes pain.

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            Through this experience I’m finding more and more that as I grow and increase in Him, naturally I must decrease in everything else.  I won’t pretend like that’s not difficult because most often it’s quite bitter.  But that fleeting discomfort that I face is but a speck when compared to the empty, desperate feeling I get when I try to ignore or tailor what God is saying to make me more comfortable, whether I initially intend to or not.  If you’ve never felt that I can only describe it as agonizing, like being hungry and thirsty and having no food or water.

When I’m in the midst of this desert all I can think about is getting back to His heart and drinking in His love.  If at no other time, it’s then that I can more fully experience the vast importance of living every moment of my life in accordance with Him.  We know that He will never lead us astray, so why do we fight it?  Why do I constantly feel the need to validate myself with material things and the opinions of other broken people?  It’s disgusting when I say it out loud but if you think about it, you’re guilty too.

Maybe it seems extreme to think about angling every last facet of your life to point at Him but… what else is there?  Outside of Him, what’s left?  What else can possibly satisfy the yearning of my soul?  I urge you not to be apprehensive of delving deeper into His heart.  Don’t fear sacrifice and obedience!  Sure it’s uncomfortable at times but I promise, with everything in me, that it’s worth it.  You’ll be completely blown away at how much you realize that you don’t need the petty things that you so dearly hold close.

I wouldn’t be nearly so adamant about what I’m saying if I hadn’t failed over and over myself.  I understand failure quite well and because of that I’ve experienced even more of His love and mercy and if that’s what’s holding you back then I encourage you to go read February’s post.

So press in, dig deep, and don’t give up!  He’s on your side and He wants to be discovered!  He wants to hold your heart in His hands and heal the broken areas of your life!  He wants you to fall in love and choose Him!  In 2 Chronicles 7 God told the Israelites that if they would humble themselves and pray then He would hear them, forgive them, and heal them.  I submit to you that His heart is the same today as it was in that day, with those people.  Humble yourselves and present your broken lives before Him.  He is a God who will not tolerate pride but whose heart melts in the midst of humility.  He truly does love you, no matter where you’re at in life.  His arms are open, what are you waiting for?

Because of Him,

Brent Hemphill

P.S.

If you’re just now joining my journey then please know that I will not be on Facebook during my time of consecration so any messages or requests you may have sent will not be responded to for quite some time.  It’s not personal, it’s Jesus.

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